Well I admit firstly that it is very late and this is going to be pretty dull. HA! Secondly, there are a lot of previews. So in the end you will be left thinking "goodness that was one long advertisement". This may be the case, but so be it. This is the beginning of the not caring about what everyone think about me blog. Or at least that's what all you good friends out there in blogland are trying to convince me should be my attitude. I am trying. I really am. I finally feel like I don't care about the rankings anymore, so that is a huge step. I wish I wasn't but I find myself very competitive and jealous about dumb stuff like that. I wish I wasn't. But reality is reality for now. I pray that God is working that out.
So the lightening the other day fried our stove. So it's been three says with no stove so far. It's weird for sure. And it of course throws my whole menu off!! Did make the chinese chicken salad. Man that is good. Even Clay had bowl after bowl of it. And that says a lot. Made an enormous batch of haystacks to try and avoid all Clay's ice cream eating, or more importantly buying. I swear though there are insane amounts of haystacks. You know haystacks right? Chocolate chips and butterscotch chips melted and mixed with crunchy chow mein noodles and spanish peanuts. My aunt makes them every year in her Christmas cookie medley. And I can tell you they are dangerous! Very very dangerous to have 3 full big ziplocs full of. I am going to write myself out a daily eating plan tomorrow and see if I can have self discipline for just ONE day. I'll post that tomorrow morning (or this morning for most reading) and track my progress. Maybe starting to post weight stuff here will create this false sense of accountability that will help me succeed. I need something. This cannot go on ANY LONGER! I never thought I would weigh this much. I never thought I would feel so old so young. I never thought I would feel like such a failure in the area of my body. It needs to change. It can change. I need to have hope. I hate that I am the Queen of Pity Parties. I hate it. How does one just change that? How do I flip the switch to stop feeling like garbage when I look at things in my life? Answers are more than welcome. And on that track..
How do I just be happy? Or content? Or just choose to be in a better mood. Things with Clay are pretty bad. He doesn't like my attitude any more. I need to change it? Do I just tell myself to change it? If I can't keep myself from eating a cookie how do I keep myself from acting ugly when I am upset? I guess the answer lies back to my 21 day challenge here. There is only one thing, only one person that can fix it. And I don't look to Him when I need Him. Pray I will start.
Now speaking of the 21 day challenge, I did one today. I can't do them everyday so I am doing the quotes as they inspire me. This is today's. Clay gave me, well sorta since he took it back ha!, this red painted metal rose.. and here's the LO. The quote is : The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all. Nice. I long to bloom in the midst of this adversity instead of wilt.
One great thing happened today though. My mom is refinancing her house, so I had to have it cleaned top to bottom. It stressed me out beyond belief, Clay and I had a huge fight, and I stayed up super late last night. But I awoke to a gorgeous clean house. This is the beginning! I need to keep it clean. And every single room in the whole house is spotless. That Rocks!
Okay I need to wake Clay and go to bed. But I made a whole slew of fun things. Beware this is a spam fest, but read carefully might be a little something sparkly mixed in.
Will start with the mess of furries. These are all FUN fun fun furry elements!! They should be going in the store tomorrow I think. As always, click the picture and you will get a full page image so you can see them closeup. Look close at the furry stuff cause it's cute :)
Man I LOVE this aqua alpha!! My fave, along with the stars.
Ah ha, did you look through ALL those furries. If so, here's a little something. I made these for a chat a little bit ago. More glitter to add to your collection. I put some closeups so you could see the detail. I find a lot of the glitter hard to tell what it is and am skeptical about downloading it because of it.
Alrighty Here's the Glitter Link:
Glitter LinkCan you believe that these papers have been on my drive for months and I totally forgot about them? I found them the other day and rushed to make elements for them because I loved em so much!!Got 3 more paper packs that need elements I think still to do. Another Warm kit lol. Bet you thought these were over and done with. Got one more.
So... I meant to put my staple in the furry elements zips. I forgot so I am giving it away. Honestly I am picky about some things. One being stitching the other being staples. I finally have 2 staples I like. My chucky one from my dirty kits, and this new one. I love this one. I use it for everything and have a couple friends that are loving it too. So here it is the famed staple lol!
I don't know how to set it up where you just right click the png, so here's a link for it.
Staple LinkI guess I should go to bed. I am tired. Oh forgot! So I have been going to bed pretty late and have been pretty tired so I have started listening to this new Dramatized KJV audio Bible set I bought on ebay. I put the CD player on when I lay down for bed and listen awhile when I am too tired to read. I have been loving it!!
Good night and Good Luck. Oh and PS: I owe a lot of people emails. I know I suck. I will try and answer them today (well tomorrow). Night.