Friday, March 17, 2006

Well ever had the kind of day that the littlest thing just hurts? This trip to be honest has been very hard. Things with Clay have not been good. As it turns out Frankie started throwing up and has been throwing up all day and has a fever. We are getting on a plane tomorrow and I have a 6yo who is throwing up. Well... then. So I know the ratings thing on the blog list are going away sometime, but I go today and see the only review I have gotten is this : "Was disappointed - seemed a bit nasty the time I read her blog. Decided not to return - maybe she was having a bad day???" Yunno.. I admit things have been really hard lately but the last thing I want people to think when they see a snapshot of me is that I am nasty. For some reason this hurts me. I know I shouldn't care but I do. I have many times sat back and tried to decide if I want to consider stopping doing this blog all together. Sometimes I feel gossipy or that I talk about things on this blog I don't know if I would day in real life. Maybe I am nasty on this blog. I dunno. I have sometimes thought that maybe I do it to keep "real" for customers, oh for goodness sake I don't know why I do it. I have another blog for Christian women that I think maybe should be my main blog. Amazing how someone reviewing my blog when I don't even believe they should be reviewable is making me wonder if I want to continue doing this at all. I am really having a hard time balancing the time I spend on the computer. I often wonder if I should just be ditching spending time on these things all together and just designing to desing and scrapping to scrap, focus more on my family and home and leave the scrapping community. I may be too competitve and jealous to be who I want to be in this industry. Maybe I am putting things of the world before my Jesus and my family. I don't know. Maybe I do act nasty here. Maybe I should stop. Maybe I should just go pack for the trip home and not worry about it now. That's the ticket. Oh, PS the only reason I am posting a pic is that Blogger is down and I am testing posting through hello to see if it works.

19 Comments:

Blogger Priscilla said...

Kim, take no notice of that review - that person is nasty herself leaving a review like that!! (((Big hugs))) for you - I enjoy coming and checking out what you've been up to lately - its nice seeing the 'human' side of the designer - I think it makes you even more likeable!!

7:30 PM  
Blogger Amy said...

Oh good grief! Kim, you feel free to vent anytime you want. Life is not all roses all the time. I kind of like that you are comfortable enough to post your feelings without worrying about what people think. You've had a rough couple of weeks, take a deep breath and let it out...repeat as necessary.

Amy

7:31 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Kim, it's your blog and say what you want. Don't worry about what other people think. True friends will stick by you no matter what.

8:12 PM  
Blogger HaleyW said...

Kim - I'm so sorry that you a feeling this way. Sending you :::HUGS::: - there are just people out there who think they need to voice their opinion about everything. It is ridiculious -and I understand you feeling this way - I would, too! But I believe that you are at a point where you can make a choice -- to let it bother you and let them have the best of you by stopping this blog, or you can choose to ignore it, know that your blog is enjoyed by plenty of people, and keep on going. I hope you don't let them get the best of you. I keep up with your blog -- and you had a post last week (I think) that you thought your blog was boring... I enjoy it. I'm a boring person, and I enjoy knowing that I'm not alone! :)

So know that I'm praying for you and your family. You are under a little bit of stress right now. Hang in there, get home, and get back into your routine. You will feel better soon!

Again - HUGS!!
Haley

8:19 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

awwww, kim. for me personally, i've never seen anything nasty. i would say, without regard to that woman, if you enjoy blogging, creating a personal diary of sorts, or whatever, by all means do it. if you don't enjoy it, don't do it. take care. :)

8:28 PM  
Blogger Lunasea said...

You are so not nasty. And besides, who wants to hear about someone for whom everything is perfect all the time? Not me. Blegh. Anyway, I got someone about a year ago spamming my blog with mean comments and it still bugs me, so I know how it can hurt, but try to remember that there are more people out here who like what you have to say.

9:05 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love reading your blog, Kim (even though I don't comment enough) and would hate for you to quit! I love how much more "real" you have become and that you are giving us a peak into your life! I'm on Carrie's CT and I know that she is trying really hard to get the rating thing off the blog list....she doesn't like it either! Hang in there sweetie, and don't quit! Good luck on your trip home.

9:52 PM  
Blogger Margie said...

Some people huh!! I enjoy your blog and it's yours so write whatever you feeeeel like Gosh! :)

11:10 PM  
Blogger Margie said...

I can't find your other blog-can you tell me the address? thanks

11:12 PM  
Blogger Sinead said...

Nasty? I sure haven't seen anything nasty here. Who knows what some people think sometimes. Maybe SHE was having a bad day and not you. Heck, maybe it was one of those 200dpi people trying (in a lame-o way) to retaliate for your truth speak about that. Who knows.

Either way--I'm so sorry that Frankie is sick. That doesn't bode well for a flight, but maybe it was just a 24 hour thing and he'll be better tomorrow. I hope your flight home goes smoothly!

11:38 PM  
Blogger Sarah96 said...

OMG Kim! Totally forget that comment. Don't let that affect your choice to blog or not...it's not a contest and you don't have to have all cheerie blogs every day, every time. Life has it's ups and downs, and what good would your blog do for you if you didn't "write" about how you REALLY feel. It's your record. LOTS of people love your blog and you, and if that one person doesn't they don't need to come back, but it shouldn't stop you.

I completely understand your hurt though - I would SOOOO be feeling exactly the same way, but since it isn't me, I can think more unaffected by this and say DON'T let it hurt you - you are not nasty (I personally think you are one of the kindest people I've met in digi scrapping and absolutely love you for all the time and help you've given me).

Give yourself a break, enjoy your family and yourself, and allow yourself to be real and let out your happy times AND stresses by "discussing" it with the rest of us.

Hope you all have an uneventful return home and Frankie feels better very soon. Safe travles and *HUUUUUGS* :-) Sarah

12:24 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh, my goodness, Kim...please ignore the comment...I can't believe someone said it. Like Dana said, remember IT'S YOUR BLOG--SAY WHAT YOU WANT!!! I read your blog all the time...and I will comment more. I think you're a great person (as well as a fellow Sci-Fi geek) :)

7:14 AM  
Blogger Julie Jewels said...

You know what? This is your blog. Your feelings, your thoughts, your space on the web to say what you want to. Forget the people who don't like it. Seriously! I know it's hard and I know it hurts, but I hope you can read all the comments you get today and feel better about things! I love reading your blog-it's real to me. Real life, real thoughts, a real person. Please please don't let one comment get you down and make you throw in the towel!
That aside, I sincerely hope Frankie feels better before you have to get on the plane tomorrow!! I'll pray it's a short lived tummy bug! Poor little guy!
((Hugs))

7:39 AM  
Blogger krista said...

I just ran across that blog rating site and must say geez just another popularity contest. YUCK!! Love your blog because it's your life and life ain't perfect.

8:57 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Kim, I am really sorry somoene left you a nasty review! That is beyond wrong. Some people only get pleasure from cutting other people down it seems....

Just take a little break and re-sort your priorities. This is YOUR space to journal YOUR ideas and feelings. If someone doesn't like it, tough on them. You aren't forcing them to read. I've been checking your Blog for a solid 2 months now and I've never seen anything nasty.

I hpe Frankie starts feeling better. Being sick on a plane has got to stink. :(

12:17 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Kim, First of all, I have being reading your blog for the best part of this year and I don't think there was ever anything nasty or mean I read. True, there were your *thoughts* on 200 dpi (!!!), and I think your statements on that issue where very valid and balanced, not a great big, unknowledgable rant. Let's face it, if you can't stand up for your own viewpoint or opinion, what's the point in having one???

For the person that posted the comment about your blog, I never think being that judgemental is an attractive quality and being unnecessarily judgemental about a blog you've read only once seems completely unnecessary on that individuals part.

When I was little my mum always used to say "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all" and let's face it, if that person thinks that you - who seems to be one of the most considerate and sharing designers around - seems to be mean or nasty the're not someone whose comments you should care about (right?!).

I love your blog...I don't find it boring and I also don't compare it to that of other designers. I like it because it's your style and it is open and honest and doesn't try to be anything it isn't. I hope you find a way with your dilemma, but I think you would find a lot of people who would miss your blog big time.

Thats enough from me... 'cept big {{{hugs}}} to you and yours

12:50 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I thought that's what blogs are for??? You're journalling your thoughts...

But you're not "nasty" anyway. I enjoy reading your blog. You always have something to say!

Where's your other blog for Christian Women? I would be very interested in reading it!

Keep bloggin' and ignore those silly ratings! Someone else is being nasty!

3:24 PM  
Blogger Kylie said...

OMG, some people can be so selfish and rude. I could not believe someone could comment on your personal thoughts so meanly. I personally have been coming here for a good few months and have never found it boring, nasty or otherwise. There have been many times that I also have simpathised with something going on in your life that mirrored my own. Never let the nasty people out there treat you like that - fight back, this blog is for you, no one else, you blog for your self, your thoughts, fears, loves and faith. Do not let anyone dictate how you react!

Hugs to frankie and your family and I hope the next week starts to look alot better.

STOP LOOKING AT THE REVIEWS, they are in no way a reflection of you, I personally did not go there to comment after yours and gina's post the other day, because I strongly feel that these blogs are unique to the individual, how can I rate someones life - therefore I opted out. Chin up and remember there are some of use who truly appreciate you!

6:34 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Kim, you are so not nasty! You are real, and though you may think what you talk about is boring, it is all real and I can totally relate! I have been coming and reading faithfully for about 3wks now, and have enjoyed everyword! Keep doing what you are doing, and don't listen to those stupid reviews!!!

12:27 AM  

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